Amen Good Blog, I do think many get Ambition confused and they boast of themselves on what they have done.

Amen. I’m adding that there is nothing wrong for preparing yourself to open those big doors & walk out into the world!As Christian’s we are no longer of this world but we live in this world. We still need to get by until He calls us to our heavenly home. Ad is in nineth grade & by the end of next year she will have her associates degree. You’ve heard that saying , “ it’s better to aim at the moon & miss it than to shoot at a ditch and hit it”?It’s what we do with that ambition. Where it takes us & how we use it. I had a lady yesterday that tried hard to offer me a check from our church account to help with the expenses of my Christmas thing Ad & I do with the help of friends. Do ya’ll know why I said no mam? It’s all about the giving ,not the receiving ! Blessing others. Also use your talents that God gives you. As long as it is used in the right way ( for the Lord I don’t think there is anything wrong with a little ambition! Great blog Michele😘

I believe I wrote this during a time of transition. I battled with obtaining my Associates Degree in Public Health for a few years. I am no stranger to my health hindering me in ALL endeavors. While I was attending the university I graduated from, I was pregnant with my firstborn and even beyond her being born. But there were health scares throughout trying to prevent me from accomplishing anything. I nearly didn’t graduate at all because of it. But by the grace of God, my professors expressed patience and compassion and were understanding. I got extra credit or was given an opportunity to retake courses for free. I knew God had favor in that situation even though financially I was now in debt. However let me explain that God used those loan refunds for me in every perfect timing to help me get further and further in life and help my family and others. I remember it was a leaning on him fully, and everything fell into place so long as I was leaning on him and NOT others. When I relied too much on others, I fell. Ambition for me can be something positive, like my ambitions in ministry but when I was younger I was taught it was all about getting a scholarship to the best schools, making millions, and making a name for myself in society because of MONEY, not my actual plans being done. It was already planned for me. But now that I look back through all my childhood struggles, I reckon someone would desire that for their kid if all they ever knew was struggle. But the love of money is the root of all evil and that isn’t what is truly fulfilling. I am not one that is ok with just making money and having my name in bright lights, driving the fanciest car, etc.
A quick testimony of why I carried this view. In public school (yet another reason I homeschool) we have it instilled in us as kids what direction we should take. Now I was not the normal school kid. I was NOT a Christian but I will tell you that I fought for God in school. I was bullied into the hospital at times, I was ostracized, I was assaulted, I was harassed, I went through everything a troubled kid could go through. The police were involved many times and I had not even done anything wrong — guilty by association. I had a plan that I WANTED for myself and for a time it was something a group of my friends and myself all had set up. It was a shared dream. I WAS THE ONLY ONE that did not have that dream realized, but I look at my life now and thank God that I didn’t get to do what I had planned. Join the army, get a scholarship for a top tier university and major in Forensic Science, become a Forensic Investigator, and start a big family with a big house after retiring. That was my life’s plan. I was a senior. I was so close to graduating.
But one morning at 3am I woke up having a stroke and my whole life changed but it was for the better not the worst. MY PLANS were NOT God’s plans for me. What I wanted was not the best… I see now all the “friends” that went on to pursue this dream without me and I see how miserable they were, how they lacked faith and renounced God, how they changed their whole identity and became someone they didn’t recognize. I’m not saying the military doesn’t do good too, we didn’t want to join to serve our country, it was to serve our own wants. There was no honor in that. We just wanted a financial shortcut, and a little discipline wouldn’t hurt. Where would I be had I done what I wanted and never listened to God? I actually got saved after that stroke which was from a deadly brain infection. I decided to live for God from that point I realized He gave me the breath in my lungs after I felt the breath leave my lungs at one point and my heart stopped; it changes you. I couldn’t even retain the same knowledge I had prior to criminology, forensic science, and other things I once studied. I had no more for desire for studying crime scenes and getting in the minds of serial killers. I at one point tried to attend a technical college and push for criminology. I used to love studying the mind of criminals. It became a dark obsession at one point which I longed to escape. But I was allowing school teachers, my parents, and my peers to push me to what they thought was best and I wanted what they thought was best. But GOD had and has better plans for me. I wouldn’t be in ministry had I kept following those selfish ambitions.